Introspection Connection

If you had a chance to somehow go back in time and talk to your younger teenage self…what would you say?

One of things that’s been happening with me during this pandemic is well…quite a bit of introspection. I’ve had a few distanced meals outdoors with softball teammates but it’s still been mostly a secluded bubble with my hubby and dog. My brain has really been picking up the slack. The dreams have been more surreal than usual. The guest stars have been everybody in my past and present and the backdrops have been beautiful or scary and anything in between.

In one dream, I run into my teenage self and am absolutely unloading all this information in a rant that the average Joe couldn’t understand. I laugh at one point and ask: "did you understand any of that?" The kid shakes his head; "no."

I wake up thinking about the things I can do to help that younger me. I think I would encourage him to be happy and take some chances sooner than later. I had a lot of guilt growing up. The time I spent in the closet, I can’t get back. What was I even afraid of? People will either like you or they will not. If they disown you, turn the page and you be you.

Actually, I know what I would say to that kid: you’ve got to make your own way.